hell of my own making
The issue with maintaining complete anonymity is that it restricts what you are allowed to say.
I want to talk about my interests, environment, feelings, etc. but doing so would build a profile around me, letting people connect this pseudonym with others around the internet. Which, yeah, makes me sound like a schizophrenic but… ok, I *am* just being schizophrenic, but I still get this urge to double check what I write for anything that can be linked back. This just makes me write something, check it, deem too personal or linkable, so i discard it.
And worse, sometimes I don’t even start writing because I deem the topic too linkable, even if I really want to talk about it. This has made me into a serial lurker, not being able to say what I want.
Even the word choice and punctation on this post gives me a headache. I am double checking this exact post to see if I am not writing like I normally do. Also, I normally write like a discord user so getting the flow right for this is hard, really hard.
Apr 21 · 2 weeks ago · 🙁 1
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It just occurred to me that that could be one of the benefits of AI, especially running AI models offline. If one wanted to write about a topic but didn't want his style of writing to be analyzed, one could feed an extended prompt into a local LLM and have the model rewrite it in a much more sterile form.
What are you afraid of? Being held reponsible for what you said online? Being fired? Harrased in real life?
"Like a schizophrenic" is the etymology of schizoid and yeah, that sounds schizoid. My suggestion is to just write out what you want in plain text files without putting them online until (and if) you become more comfortable with it. Also, welcome back to the world of paragraphs. Your attention span thanks you for the visit.
🌙 manat [OP] · Apr 22 at 04:12:
@jsreed Yep, the wording can be changed but the overarching topic/concept cannot. Also, passing it through AI removes all flavor from the text, like the timbre, you know.
I feel this pain - I LIKE telling stories about my life, or interesting things that happen, but it's the nature of the modern evil internet that there's the risk of profiling.
I've dealt with it by writing into a diary offline - telling myself that if anything I want to write down is worth sharing then I can fictionalize and publish that some day, something like that. But without the benefit of an audience, hitting post and making something permanent, the incentive to keep a habit of writing decays.
TBH at this point in my life I just assume gemini (or for me, friends-only or private-only posts on Dreamwidth) is out of the way enough for nobody to notice. No money to be made off me.
If you have an intersection of interests that would tie you to a very limited group of matched individuals, pick one thing that will for sure lead an interested party to one of the other matches, adopt that thing, like about it occasionally under your profiles, and pretend it is part of your identity. Then when the doxxers come hunting for you they will end up ruining that poor bastard's life instead.
🌙 manat [OP] · Apr 25 at 07:32:
@pista I don't care about people doxxing me because the only people who have the resources to do that are the CIA. That's why it's such an irrational fear of mine.
Also, I want to talk about more than one thing; being able to only talk about x topic with y profile sucks. The intersection of your own interests is the interesting thing that you bring to the table.