Being resentful doesn't feel like a great situation to be in. I'm sorry to hear that.
I have been in that spiralling situation in the past, I have found that comparing myself to others is never a good plan, instead, I compare myself to myself. After all, we all have different backgrounds, experiences, and drives.
Six years ago, I decided to read as many books as I could, from economics, business, people skills, and many biographies from whom I considered successful people. Now, I've got a new career, and earning double what I did back then. I'm loving it, and have found meaning in what I do, not what I thought I wanted to do.
I'm sure you will be in a better situation than you are now in the near future, if you put your mind to it.
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Thanks! And it's not real resentment, it's more like "wow we live in a world where people can generate their own power -- wish I had that". More of a combination of awe and wishful thinking.
Glad to hear your journey brought to closer to happiness!